Dusting myself off and getting back on the horse

I’m feeling good this Friday morning guys! By 8 am, I had already gotten in some exercise (elliptical + core), made my own cashew nut milk (so easy guys!), and then used that nut milk in a smoothie, and was already headed to work.

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Maybe it’s the maca powder in my smoothie.

Or maybe it is the fact that the past 2 days have been amazing. I’ve lunched with the amazing Tara Stiles, been actually loving my low intensity workouts, attended a Spring Vegetable cooking class with an idol The Regal Vegan where I made new friends, and last night had an amazing avocado themed like 10 course Mexican dinner cooked my an award winning chef (there will be a more detailed post on this).

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Learning to cook (and eat) gorgeous spring veggies

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I guess life is easy when you are enjoying Avocado Cheesecake.

Do you guys remember those choose your own adventure books?? I loved those.


I would pick to go into the cave with the bear, and if it turned out not so well then I would just turn back and pick the other route. Easy, right?

Unfortunately, life does not work that way. Great job these books did in prepping me for adulthood. Note to self – don’t let future children read these. Or if they do and get their arm chewed off by the bear in that cave, then teach them tough love – no going back, sorry kid. Figure out how to climb out of that whole now with one arm and their other spewing blood, and the bear chasing you down still.

Sorry got a little worked up for a minute –

So last year, I made a decision. I spent tons of money and worked hard to start my adventure in nursing and helping people live well. All set to start in one month, I was going to be done in just one year with my second bachelor’s. Then, both bb and I would be starting our careers, doing what we wanted, and officially entering adulthood next June. Yeehaw!

Not so fast Ashley – you can’t get approved for loans because you have way too much already.

Did not see that ending coming to this adventure. I thought I was a good investment. I would be doubling my salary in order to pay back those loans, AND I have always had good grades, AND I was pre-health already.

After exhausting every option, and then spending Monday and Tuesday laying on the floor crying – I rallied. I realized those books did teach me something after all – YOU CHOSE YOUR OWN ADVENTURE. I can spend the next year in this fetal position, with raccoon eyes, and pitying myself. Or I can get up and make the best of it. I still have a lot going for me – I still have my job in neuroscience research (thank god my replacement bailed literally last minute), I get to keep living with bb, and I get to stay in the glorious NYC a little bit longer. Not so bad, right?

Yes, my future is stalled and sort of in the balance. But I’m trying to remember everything happens for a reason and make the absolute best out this situation.

I have to say this has been one of the biggest set backs and road blocks I have ever experienced.

Welcome to life, Ashley. It only took you almost 25 years to get here – Now, what are you going to do with it??

I’m choosing positivity! And I’m going live the crap out of it, no matter what the shit pickle is.

Here are some wise words to live by – carry them with you into the weekend.

“Water flows freely, smoothing rocks in it’s path without getting stuck or caught up. let your life flow like water and smooth the rocks.” Tara Stiles

Anyone else in a pickle recently?? Or have some words to live by they would like to share?

What do have planned for the weekend?? I’m going for relaxing after the draining 10 days I’ve just experienced. Between health issues, money, huge life changes, arguments, misunderstandings, etc I need some sleep, yoga, and maybe a massage. I also would not mind if someone wanted to come cook for me : )


  1. Awww… I would come cook for you if I was there!

    Glad things are looking a little better… I know it’s hard to find a bright side sometimes. That avocado cheesecake would certainly have perked me up! :)

    • Haha, thanks friend! Im going to post recipe for avocado cheesecake when they send it. So good – like a not too sweet key lime pie almost.

  2. way to step up ash! you can make that adventure a reality and you WILL!

  3. My dad & brother always say: Improvise, Adapt, Overcome. It’s actually Clint Eastwood (Dirty Harry) who said that, but it’s a good one!
    Hang in there.

    • I looove that you just gave me a Dirty Harry quote. And it fits perfect! This made my morning – thanks girl.


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